part 7. sometimes follow heart guidance is the best act

 now i'm in administration process to finish my undergraduate degree (finally, i worked on this near to a year). i'm jobless so i have many times to do some hobby that interesting for me. let's say, they are practicing english, i practice write and speaking english, and also try to build a little block code about stock, they say it's name is quantitive finance.

in learning english, i have enough vocabulary and grammar understanding for elemntary grade, what i need is to practicing them. i practice to write in english through this blog and i practice speaking trough making some shorts videos with audio my voice in english. they are far from perfect, but since beginning, even in this writing blog, my objective is only one, write writing as wrong as i say, so i don't scare of being makae mistake anymore since it's my objective. my low level objective and only one help  me to have more focus to write as much as i can because less mental pressure. but after i write 20 articles, i planning to use grammarly to check my grammar. atleast i have a litlle insight every my articles.

in practice to building code in python for stock not as simple as i think. it's really hard because of some reasons. the main reason is coding rely on perfect syntax and it's have so many many syntax. it's really hard for me to be honest. i really being in rush to complete many syntax, and tha's always make me forget the earlier syntax i practiced. to be honest it really hurts, so i start to lower my expectacy and i think i'm gonna separate my time only about 30% on coding and the rest 70% on english (spesifically on december)

if i think again, from my perspeftive, atleast i need to have more grateful, since i don't start all of them really from beginning. i read so many articles in english from in a long time, it really helpful so i can focus on buildong sentences both in speaking and writing. and also i have bought stock for about 2 years, so when i start to have idea to make code for stock calculator, i not should to learn finance from the start. i can only focus on coding (i many times fail to learning python, even this time it's feel start from zero, i still grateful at least i think now i find the right path, as a result my rethinking about may failure in the past)

why do i start to read many articles in english then? at the time i just follow my heart, i think learning english gonna so powerful and help a lot. but unfortunately, even though i read in for many years, very much formal articles in hard to understand. why do i start to bought some stocks then, and again, because i follow my heart. i think buy stock when not financial freedom is the best time to start investin, so when i have better finansial status when i grow older, i no need to learn from the beginning.

sometimes listen and follow to heart is the best thing to do, especially when have less pressure. because when have many pressure and many responsibility, voice of heart not have very big proportion and intent to make decision based on logic.